May ,10th.
Thank God for the rain,which washed away...
...the garbage and the trashoff the sidewalks.
I'm working long hours now.
Six in the afternoon to sixin the morning, sometimes even eight.
Six days a week,sometimes seven days a week.
It's a long hustle,but it keeps me real busy.
I can take in $300,$350 a week.
Sometimes even more,when I do it off the meter.
All the animals come out at night.
Whores, skunk-pussies, buggers,queens, fairies, dopers, junkies.
Sick, venal.
Someday, a real rain will come andwash all this scum off the streets.
I go all over. I take people tothe Bronx, Brooklyn, Harlem.
I don't care.Don't make no difference to me.
It does to some.Some won't even take spooks.
Don't make no difference to me.
Each night when I return the cab,I clean the come off the back seat.
Some nights, I clean off the blood.

Twelve hours of work and I still can't sleep.  Damn.  Days go on and on. And they don't end.
All my life needed was a sense of someplace to go.
I don't believe that one should devotehis life to morbid self-attention.
I believe someone shouldbecome a person like other people.

Loneliness has followed me all my life in everywhere
 in bars,in cars,sidewalks,stores, everywhere.  There is no escape. I am God's lonely man.

June,8th.
My life has taken another turn again.
The days move alongwith regularity, over and over...
And then suddenly....there is change.

June 29th.
I gotta get in shape.Too much sitting has ruined my body.
From now on, it'll be50 pushups each morning.Fifty pull-ups.
It'll be total organization.Every muscle must be tight.The idea had been growingin my brain for some time.
True force.
All the king's men cannotput it back together again.
You talking to me?
You talking to me?
You talking to me?
Then who the hell else are youtalking to? You talking to me?
Well, I'm the only one here.
Who the fuck do you thinkyou're talking to?
Oh, yeah?  o.k.
Listen, you fuckers,you screwheads.
Here is a man who would nottake it anymore.
Who stood up againstthe scum...
...the cunts, the dogs,the filth, the shit.
Here is someone who stood up
Now I see it clearly.My whole life is pointed...
...in one direction. I see that now.
There never has beenany choice for me.

* 再會님에 의해서 게시물 복사되었습니다 (2007-04-27 10:50)
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